“If it were possible for a created soul fully . . . to ‘appreciate’, that is to love and delight in, the worthiest object of all, and simultaneously at every moment to give this delight perfect expression, then that soul would be in supreme beatitude.” – C.S. Lewis, Reflection on the Psalms 
I remember I went through a period where I really wanted to loose some weight. So I started a regiment of a healthy diet, cardio, and strength training. I eventually achieved my target goal, but I have to say, it was a little more mentally draining than I had prepared for. One of my problems was that I was checking my weight everyday. Everyday I would get on the scale to measure my progress and would sometimes be surprised by my loss but I would often also be let down. Sometimes I would weigh less that the day before, other times, depending on any muscle mass I may have gained or my sodium intake the day prior, the numbers would actually go up. This was disheartening because in my mind I had really thought I was doing well, yet when I looked down at those little red LED numbers, they would report the opposite.
So I eventually decided to stop weighing myself and tried to find other ways to track my progress. I started enjoying how much further I was able to run without loosing my breath, or how many more pull-ups I was able to do compared to last weel. I started enjoying the way old jeans and favorite shirts started to fit again. I started finding positive ways to enjoy my weight loss, rather than stepping on a measuring scale everyday.
When I wanted to make an intentional shift from a life spent trying not to upset God, to a life spent simply enjoying God, I stopped measuring myself everyday. I really forced myself to believe that what Christ did on the cross was sufficient to cover all of my mistakes – past, present, and future. Of course if there was obvious disobedience in my life I would still bring these to God in repentance, but I stopped stepping on the scale everyday to check myself out. I stopped examining all the wrong in my life and stopped thinking about how vast the chasm was between where I was and where I will be someday. I just simply started to enjoy God.
I started thanking Him for the fact that I do not have to measure myself everyday. I started thanking Him that He gave me another day to live and enjoy Him. I started going on walks outside just to enjoy His creation. I began looking up at the trees and thinking things like: Wow, God. You know how many leaves are on that tree. I started to enjoy the miracle of my son and how precious it was just to be in his presence. I began to inwardly and outwardly praise Him and enjoy him for no other reason than He is God, and He is good. Lewis writes, “I think we delight to praise what we enjoy because the praise not merely expresses but completes the enjoyment… Fully to enjoy is to glorify. In commanding us to glorify Him, God is inviting us to enjoy Him,”  and that’s I did.
Enjoyment was a missing ingredient I was longing for in my relationship with God. So I added it.
With the language of worship written on my heart I stopped thinking so much about what I needed to cut out or what I needed to add. I just simply began to love and enjoy God.
…the added bonus was that I also began to feel that God loved me, but better than that, He actually liked me and enjoyed me despite what a measuring scale would say about me, and my shortcomings.
This is because it was never about me. It was never about me and my ability to achieve, or my ability to fail. Every time I made it about me whether I was winning or failing, in spiritual victory or complete spiritual failure, I was being prideful to the highest degree. It was always about Him, and if we truly believe that… well that is an awful lot of weight off our shoulders. How much lighter, happier, and closer to God I felt when I that weight was removed.
When I wanted to physical loose weight, I stopped weighing myself everyday. When I wanted to loose spiritual weight and grow closer to God I stopped measuring my success and my failures everyday and just began to enjoy Him.
 Relfections on the Psalms
 Reflections on the Psalms